The struggles and triumphs of an addict

From here on out I will do my best to tell an accurate accounting of events, but this is the point in my life where, in actuality, I was in a walking coma. It's literally like fourteen years of my life have been erased from my memory because of the Methadone. The only reason I can even recall enough to tell my story is because so many bad things happened during this period. For some reason the negative memories have stayed, but if you were to ask me about my son's first step or the first time he called me daddy I would have nothing to offer. A few things have stuck around like his first day of kindergarten when I walked out balling like a baby. Before I started going to the doctor my relative lost her doctor and could no longer supply me with pills. I had lost my connection and had to figure something out quick. Without the Methadone the physical withdrawal was so bad I would have suicidal thoughts. This was a first for me. A lot of people have those types of thoughts ...

Dinsmore is a community in Jacksonville FL. It's where my family is from and where I pretty much spent the first seven years of my life. My mother and my aunt who lived together were  both pregnant at the same time. My cousin Tonia was born 11 days before I was and we were more like best friends than cousins into our teenage years. When I was really young she was the only friend and companion that I really had. We had a very strong bond. Dinsmore was what I would call countrified. Its always had its share of petty crime but drugs are the worst problem the community has. So, by now I'm around 20 and I start going to Dinsmore because a relative of mine always had some marijuana and I started self-medicating to deal with the pain from the accident. Returning to Dinsmore would turn out to be the catalyst for all my problems. My relative that was the weed man always had a house full of people including females. Basically I just showed up to my relatives house and never le...

 Iran executed all adult men in one village for drug offences, official reveals The entire adult male population of a village in southern Iran  has been executed for drug offences, according to Iran’s vice-president for women and family affairs. The matter came to light earlier this week after Shahindokht Molaverdi revealed it during an interview with the semi-official Mehr news agency in rare comments from a senior government official highlighting of drug traffickers. “We have a village in Sistan and Baluchestan province where every single man has been executed,” she said, without naming the place or clarifying whether the executions took place at the same time or over a longer period. “Their children are potential drug traffickers as they would want to seek revenge and provide money for their families. There is no support for these people.” Molaverdi said the administration of President Hassan Rouhani has brought back previously axed family suppor...

Step 2 is not going to be a fun one. We must take a good look at ourselves and do a self-examination. we must admit what addiction has turned us into and changed us in negative ways. That is the only way we can begin to correct the negative personality traits that addiction has caused. Make a list and begin to be proactive about changing everything on list. This is my list. 1) I am an Addict 2) I am manipulative 3) I am a liar 4) I am a thief 5) I put drugs before my child 6) I am selfish 7) I am not trustworthy If we don't truly self examine ourselves we can't begin to work on changing. Now sobriety will definitely help correct some of these negative traits but it's important we understand how the addiction changed us because just being sober won't completely get rid of negative character traits that have become second nature to us. Addiction invades and seizes the soul like a foreign occupation and it is a fight and struggle to take it back. Without self ex...

The absolute most important step in recovery is changing your surroundings and associations. Notice I didn't say friends. When you're in the midst of your addiction the people that you usually surround yourself with are not friends. If you've already started down the road to recovery you're beginning to see your so called friends are nowhere to be found. I came to realize I had not one true friend because l had pushed them all away. We always damage the relationships we have with the ones that truly care about us when we are using drugs. We push them away out of shame and because they are constantly nagging us about our drug use. We use them and lie to them because we are manipulators. We MUST completely change our surroundings. It's why rehab facilities recommend a sober living house when leaving. I honestly don't know if putting a bunch of freshly clean addicts in one house is a good idea or not. The concept seems good because of the rules and structure but I ...

What is flakka? Florida's dangerous new drug trend                      Police in south Florida have seen a growing number of cases of bizarre and uncontrollable behavior linked to a street drug called flakka, one of the newer chemicals in the booming category of synthetic or designer drugs. In Fort Lauderdale last month, a man tried to break down the front door of a local precinct and told police officers he was high on flakka . A few weeks later, another man who said he had just smoked flakka impaled himself while trying to scale a fence around the police station. In Lake Worth, a city in Palm Beach County, a man armed with a gun -- and naked -- stood on a rooftop and announced, "I feel delusional, and I'm hallucinating!" He told authorities he had vaped flakka with an e-cigarette. Flakka is a designer drug that can be snorted, smoked, injected or swallowed. It may also be...

World Graphic video shows attacker killing British tourist in San Fran cisco Los Angeles Times 14 hours ago                       San Francisco police released a dramatic video showing an attacker fatally stabbing a British tourist in a bustling section of the city. The incident occurred Feb. 18 on Post Street near San Francisco's Civic Center. The video shows a robber chasing and then attacking the 44-year-old tourist in the middle of the street. The tourist died Thursday, officials said. Authorities said police were looking for two suspects and asked anyone who was in the area of Post between Franklin and Gough streets to contact police. Police told the San Francisco Chronicle that the victim was stabbed in the head after a man and woman tried to steal his messenger bag. Originally reported on Yahoo.c...

Flight attendant accused of trying to smuggle 70 pounds of cocaine arrested in NY A JetBlue flight attendant accused of using her credentials to attempt to get 70 pounds of cocaine through airport security in Los Angeles before flinging off her heels and fleeing, has been arrested in New York, authorities said. Marsha Gay Reynolds surrendered Wednesday to federal authorities at John F. Kennedy International Airport, though it wasn't immediately clear how she reached New York, federal officials said JUST MY OPINION The war on drugs started by  President Nixon was a must at the time. There was a heroin epidemic due mostly to the American soldiers bringing massive amounts in on military planes from Vietnam. Then crack hit in the early 80's and President Reagan tried continuing the effort while his CIA was involved with drug trafficking with the Nicaraguan Contras. The war on drugs is a political front. The United States has been fighting this war for half a century ...

LEXINGTON, Mo. - A Lexington, Missouri, mother is behind bars after a picture of her allegedly smoking methamphetamine next to her infant was posted to Facebook. Richmond police arrested Ashley Lewis and charged her with first-degree endangering the welfare of a child. The picture shows Lewis, who police identified, holding a glass pipe with a lighter underneath. A child is lying on the couch right next to her. According to the probable cause statement, Lexington police were forwarded the picture. The caption underneath read: “Please help my friend Ashley Lewis and I stop using meth. We can’t even stop if there is a baby around. We really need help! SHARE THIS POST IF YOU WANT THIS BABY GIRL ... Original source yahoo.com https://www.yahoo.com/news/video/facebook-photo-mom-smoking-meth-130045970.html

Episode 2 So, my father adopts me around four and my sister, Jessica, is born in 1980. I don't have many memories of this time in my life. My mother and my sisters fathers  marriage did not last long. Around 1982 my mother meets the man that would raise me from age 7 to 18. My step-father Jon who was the third father figure in my short life. My mothers marriage to Jon was a blessing in many ways and a curse in a few. Jon owned and still owns a precious metal business that gave us a very comfortable upbringing. Private schools and the nicest clothes and shoes. Jon was also a self-proclaimed born again Christian. I would call him legalistic. His views were his views and therefore they were to be our views. Jon and my mother had my sister Jennifer in 1983 and my brother Josh in 1986. We, as a family, were in church at least three times a week. My Christian faith is the one positive I got out of my upbringing. Yes, it was a materialistically comfortable upbringing but Jon a...

  I came into this world on March 22, 1976 to Steve and Tara Aligood, My mother was young and Steve well I don't know how old Steve was. I don't even know Steve. He was gone before my first birthday and hasn't been back. I mean its not like he just up and vanished. My mother divorced him and he turned his back on me. I don't think it really effected me much. My mother remarried and soon after became pregnant with my perfect sister Jess and I don't mean perfect as in her brother thinks she is perfect. I mean I've never met another human being on this planet with the heart and convictions of Christ like my sister. I'm telling you Mother Theresa has nothing on my baby sis. She is beautiful and any man would jump at the chance to date her but at 36 I honestly would be surprise if she had ever kissed a man before. So, Jessica's father adopted me and He has been my dad ever since and what a good dad he has been. He never made me feel like I wasn't the sam...

  I should be dead five times over. I'm going to slowly tell a true story that would rival a Hollywood film but I'm going to tell it like a TV series so you have to sit on the edge of your seat and wait till the next "episode" is written. Trust me you're going to want to see this through because not only will it be an incredibly interesting true story but it will be very educational, controversial, and could save lives. This will be told honestly and with nothing left out. I will leave out not one embarrassing moment. I will lay out my many crimes in detail. I will explain how a 17 year old boy starts on the road of wanting to be a preacher and through many winds, turns, and dead-ends finds himself breaking all ten commandments. And, yes I said all ten.   Here is sort of a trailer to this story. A young man, myself, sustains a back injury and is put on pain medication because let me tell you a bad back is debilitating. I never was exposed to drugs as ...